I WANT I WANT I WANT
I SEEM TO BE BUT REALLY I AM OH, HOW I WANT………….!!
This week, in July of 2009, I found this poem prompt among my files. I had filled it in at a grief support group in February of 2003 – five years after Lew’s death. I had even prepared it for the support group based on a similar prompt I had used before. Today as I read what I wrote I see that my website – and my son, Judson, who designed it – have filled this longing that consumed me in 2003. Here’s what I wrote in 2003:
I WANT to move from “newly bereaved” to “ always bereaved.” I WANT my bereaved status to be less and less at the center of my life. I WANT to send Lew’s legacy out into the world and let him be truly free.
I SEEM TO BE very competent and confident and brave. I SEEM TO BE a person who could find and communicate with an editor.
BUT REALLY I AM hesitant – and too weary. Nearly ready to begin but not quite.
OH, HOW I WANT to be braver and to be the published author of “Learning from Lew.”
Many of the things I have shared in these posts have existed for years. I wrote about Lew during his life and since his death but very little of it had been shared. Thanks to you, Judson, and to you, reader, I am finally sending Lew’s legacy out into the world.
Cherry Winkle Moore is a visual artist and a retired hospice chaplain. Cherry has a Master of Fine Arts degree in painting, drawing and printmaking from the University of Alabama. Later she completed a Master of Divinity degree with an emphasis in pastoral care. Cherry sometimes says that in her case the MFA stands for Minister of Fine Arts and the MDiv stands for Making Divine Images Visible.View All Post